Thursday, November 26, 2009

Alles Wird Gut

It was quite hard to pick the right card to start this update....in general, i choose cards from some rare countries, but this time i had to sort of put that behind and make the intro into some more appropriate way....and mainly, since ive again been absent for a rather while, i needed something like a mood introduction, since i didnt just feel like coming here and go the regular way...coz as usual, life isnt going the regular way and there has been so much happening lately and im again in my ups and down swing of moods...though, to be honest, few days ago i felt way much worse...now i feel sort of numb and rather indifferent, yet with way too much weighing on my mind....to say im depressed wont actually do....how i REALLY feel is something neither I personally have managed to decipher...



and i do feel like this mouse here....sort of trapped and helpless and just waiting for the cat to smash its paw over me, but first it has to have its tease-time, of course...you wanna ask how was Germany?? Germany was good...tiring, but good....and before you manage to ask, let me disappoint you...no postcards.....i simply had no time to write them and mail them....i got some, and just addressed a few, but thats all i had managed....maybe next time when i go on a scenic trip to Germany I WILL make it up....but this time that just couldnt happen....so, sorry....
Apart from that, everything regarding Germany will be told along with the cards....when the time will come....
I honestly dont wanna think much about Germany right now...or all those things and people related to it and to the things that happened between September and this tour...coz i hate it that its over...coz i miss everything about these past 3 months...coz i hate being back where I am, even though i knew it was inevitable to happen....coz right now I feel as if these past 3 months were nothing but a nice dream....coz for once i found myself in certain aspects, and now i feel lost again on the road to nowhere....

As the card says....Alles Wird Gut....I really really hope so....coz i really want to keep doing what ive been doing these past 3 months...coz i really like to be among those people...coz i really like the nature of the work and the dynamic tempo of life....coz thats just....well....me.....and yeah, im complaining again, i know....sorry

1 comment:

Vagirl said...

Hi Ana,
So happy to see you back and that you had a safe trip. I miss you and I'm worried about you.
Hang in there and hopefully in time "Alles wird gut"!
Hugs to you!